給未來男友的話

1.我不介意你的學歷，我不介意你的家世背景、不介意你的工作薪水、不介意你的長相和身高。但是，我希望你有實力、有夢想、心地善良。

2. 我不需要玫瑰、不需要燭光晚餐、不需要鑽戒、不需要房子、不需要想破頭給我驚喜。但是，我要你愛我，而且要讓我知道。

3. 我愛下廚，希望你愛吃我最的菜和我做的點心。也希望你可以抽空陪我洗洗菜或揉個麵糰。就算你不愛吃我做的菜，也麻煩你說點小謊，並委婉的給我建議。

4. 希望你繼續擁有你的家人和朋友，我會把他們當成我的家人朋友一樣關心並照顧他們。

5. 你當然可以跟你的異性朋友聊天、見面。可是，希望你可以事前告訴我，也不要讓我有誤會的空間。

6. 我會和你分享所有的事，就算你不想知道。但也希望你能與我分享生活，從無聊的工作到你的夢想我都願意去傾聽、去理解，請不要懶的跟我解釋。

7. 不需要你整天陪我，但請讓我知道你很珍惜與我相處的時間。

8. 我不需要你籌劃旅行或活動，我很樂意包辦這一切，也很享受付出的快樂。但請告訴我你的感動。

9. 我不想分手，很痛！也希望你不要輕言放棄。但是，如果你不愛我了，希望你先讓我知道，給我時間離開你。

10. 感情對我來說絕對不是貨比三家，東挑西揀選最好的那個。請記得，因為我愛你，就算你不高不帥、不會甜言蜜語，但對我來說你就是最珍貴的。

11. 我想要有個人，一輩子互相照顧、支持。等到你頭髮白了、皮膚鬆了、走不動了，我還是會摟著你，就像我們剛陷入熱戀一樣，永遠不想放開。等到你痴呆了，什麼都忘了，我會一遍又一遍說著我們以前的故事。我會躺在你身邊、握著你的手、讓你看著我溫暖的微笑，直到你永遠闔上雙眼。

【作業】誰逼我捐卵？

拿在哥大的作業來灌個水。作業的主題是科學議題的「讀者投書」。

寫的是繳不出學費差點跑去捐卵子的心路歷程，以及看這所謂的「捐贈」背後隱藏著資本主義凌駕身體自主權的問題。


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Who forces me to be an egg donor?



The whole thing started at the beginning of the semester.

I didn’t have money to pay the tuition, and people will do anything when they desperately need money. One day I saw a post by a company looking for egg donors. The $8000 compensation sounded like easy money since I only made 10,000 a year back in Taiwan.

I thought, a female lays about 400 eggs in her whole life, and most of them are wasted. If I can get all those eggs fertilized, there will be lots of little Sherry Lins, and probably one or two of them will become another Bill Gates or Hillary Clinton, and I will be very close to ruling the world.

So I followed the poster’s instructions and went on line to fill out a very long form about everything.

My height: 5’2”
My weight: 110 pounds (after I amputate my left leg)
Have twins or other multiple births occurred in your family? No. (The couple wants a child, not a kindergarten)
My hobby: (Ummm…drinking and gossiping) Reading, exercising, and playing piano
Favorite childhood memory: When I prepared a show for my mom for the mother’s day, and she cried, and we hugged. (She threatened to sell me to the circus.)
Why do you want to be an egg donor? Because I am a total altruist (who needs to pay tuition)

That night, I dreamed about my future daughter. She looked racially-mixed, big eyes, very sweet face (didn’t look like me at all). I took her to school and showed her off, and then she disappeared. I rummaged through the whole school but couldn’t find her. Then I woke up with tears in my eyes.

I gave up the idea of donating my eggs. My dream had tested my feelings about egg donation--I would have a baby somewhere in the world, but I could never find her/him.

Couple days later, I got a call from a friend. She donated her eggs successfully and has been introducing other people to the idea because there is a $500 introduction fee. “If you donate your eggs, we can split the $500.” She tried to persuade me and some other friends.

One of her roommate is a beautiful Vietnamese. Because of poor English, she couldn’t find a job in New York, and is now training to be a poker dealer for casinos. My friend persuaded her not to be a dealer because of the complex environment of casinos. She told her, “Why don’t you donate your eggs twice a year, and cover a whole year’s living expenses. And, it is helping people.”

She used the words “donate” and “help” so often that it made me confused about the meanings. If this “donation” is a real act of altruism, why did British women stop donating eggs after the government cut the compensation to £15 ($30)? Why do people stick with the word “donate”? How many egg donors make the decision without hesitation?

And, what forces them to donate eggs for money?

Despite those who want get extra money to buy an LV, most donors are forced to do so because of financial binds. And this situation reminds me of the organ trade in many Asian countries.

In the Philippines, the island Baseco is known as “No Kidney Island”. Three thousand out of 50,000 residents have each sold one of their kidneys to Western patients. And they only got about $2,000 for their non-renewable kidney. Most of these kidney sellers’ economic status actually get worse because of the decline of their health.

Some might argue, “Can you think a better way for them to make money? If you can’t, what is wrong with those desperate people selling their organs?” And, other might argue, “You sell your intelligence and skill to make money, is it so different from selling organs?”

Sure. Under the inevitable logic of capitalism, nothing is unsellable. The only one thing I can do is pray not to be born in a poor family for my next life; if I am, I probably won’t even own my own organs.

I signed an organ donation card years ago, and I am truly willing to donate every organ I have to people who deserve them. I might even donate my eggs someday, but definitely not because I am forced to do so.

不爽

今天要拿我自己，和我的親朋好友們開刀。本來想說想罵的人想罵的事太多了，就罵天吧！不過這不關天的事，是人性。為什麼我要批評人性，因為人類不是老愛擺架子說自己跟其他動物不一樣，但劈腿偷吃的時候又辯稱自己也是動物也有獸慾嘛！最好可以那麼爽，想擺萬物之靈的架子就擺，想亂來的時候又說自己是動物。


剛讓我不爽的是一個網路論壇：莫拉克颱風讓中華電信的海底電纜壞了，有人在大罵中華電信修太慢，電話打不通。論壇最下面有個新聞連結：墨西哥托兒所火災，三十一個小朋友被燒死。

你們有沒有想過搶修人員幾天幾夜不用睡在大風大雨中要修理電腦，更不用講海底山崩對海洋生態和生物來說有多慘了。你們卻只想：「碼的，網拍又連不上。」不用說下面那堆悲慘的新聞連結了，大家的眼睛根本就自動過濾掉了吧？海地地震有多慘，大家還不是邊吃飯邊看新聞，邊說「可不可以轉台，看這個吃不下」。然後換了綜藝節目哈哈大笑又多添了三碗飯。管他什麼墨西哥燒死三十幾個小朋友，這新聞有比自己臉上的小脫皮來的重要嗎？


另一件事是昨天跟一個政風處的朋友聊天，專門辦公務人員貪瀆案。在說記者常在還沒起訴的時候就先把消息報出來，讓嫌疑犯有機會把所有的證據銷毀掉。我的記者朋友說，消息會出去，是檢調人員內部洩漏的，這個是他們內部的錯，要辦請辦自己的人。

我想說的是，記者沒錯，但也不對！沒人規定檢調大嘴巴，記者也要跟著大嘴巴吧？防護機制不能有兩層嗎？就算沒有法令規定，自己的良心專業還不夠做出正確的判斷嗎？

接下來一定有人會辯稱，要求記者保密太難了，民眾有知的權利OOXX。哪個正直民眾會希望為了搶先知道這個八卦，讓這些偷竊自己納稅錢的大魚跑了，麻煩你們留言給我謝謝。

我不覺得這是高調，只是要大家多一點同理心。還有喚回過去對社會對世界那一點責任感。真的拜託拜託，我們當年不是這樣的吧！？大家懷抱著什麼理想進入新聞系和新聞界。絕對不是跟院長秘書長混、拿免費展演票、或是嫁入豪門而已。

這幾年，我們實力增加了多少？夢想還記得多少？不要幾年下來，只學會擺架子。每天能跟這些名人混，是老百姓給你的權力，沒人看你的新聞看你怎麼擺架子。這些名人願意跟你混，絕對不是因為你的實力和人格，而是因為工作。等下了崗，看看還有沒有人要理你。

拜託拜託大家清醒點。

請驕傲，但是因為你有骨氣能拒絕誘惑能為民眾負責而驕傲。

【食譜】牛肉麵

又要交稿了＠＠
每次交稿前都會很想做菜、睡覺和看韓劇…

這個食譜給剛到美國的熊同學，雖然買錯電鍋，但是還是可以煮麵：）

在台灣真的滿幸福的，想吃牛肉麵到巷口就有了，不像在美國某些地方，要開幾個小時到中國城才吃的到。想自己煮，光湊齊材料就要跑兩三個超市。煮到牛筋軟爛又要半天一天。不過當時吃到的感動真是難以言喻啊～～～～

如果是自己煮的話，在美國煮牛肉麵比在台灣煮好吃，原因是美國很容易買到beef stock（牛高湯），在台灣很難找到牛高湯。所以在美國煮的牛肉麵味道比較濃厚，美國的牛腱不知道為什麼吃起來也比較嫩一點。也有可能是太難吃到的關係，所以把牛肉麵給美化了也說不定。

照片上還有亂成一團的桌面，我果然是很樸實的攝影啊...




牛肉湯（自己加麵就變牛肉麵了）


修改自http://www.euphocafe.com/recipe/recipe.asp?rid=28


材料：一盒牛腱、一盒牛筋、蔥2支、薑5片、蒜5瓣、乾辣椒3支、青菜、麵條

調味料：花椒油1T、豆瓣醬2T、辣椒醬1t、米酒1T、醬油2T、糖1T、滷包1個、蔬菜高湯塊2塊、牛高湯1罐

作法：
1. 水中加以蔥、薑、米酒（另外加不在上述的材料內）川燙牛腱、牛筋。牛筋請先煮個一小時，不然會太硬，而且牛筋會有腥臭味。洗淨

2. 開始用上面的材料了。找個大湯鍋，以3T油爆香蔥、薑、蒜、辣椒。放入花椒油、豆瓣醬、米酒、醬油、糖，炒香。

3. 放入一罐牛高湯、蔬菜高湯塊、牛筋、牛腱、滷包。加水蓋過牛肉再多一些。然後一直煮、維持水在同個高度。

4. 小火煮一小時候，過濾雜質。剩下牛肉和湯繼續煮，煮到很軟大概要三到五小時以上。用悶燒鍋之類的當然比較方便囉！

5. 要吃的時候可以加麵和青菜。

我都會做很大量然後分成小盒冷凍起來，要吃的時候解凍再加麵。就不用說在超想吃的時候還要等上一天才吃的到牛肉麵。